Anonymous said: I feel like I'm one of the worst artists in my group. People look at my work and say nothing at all and looking at there's I KNOW it's a million times better. I am crying all the time and don't know what to do. I get my assignments done, but just barely as I am a slow worker, and I have no time for personal art or at the very least practicing what I've learned in class. I can barely eat or sleep and feel nauseous all the time. Does 2nd semester get better? Same anon as a few days ago.
Hi there! We all have those terrible days where we look at our art, compare ourselves to people we admire, and feel worthless/hopeless/anxious. It’s something I personally go through frequently too. However, it seems like you’re having way too many bad days and it’s really holding you back and probably harmful to your health at this point? I really think you should try to talk to a counselor at school because we’re just some students trying to work though varying degrees of the same feelings as well. I’m not sure if anything we say will really help you that much.
About 2nd semester. Some people find it better, some people find it worse. I don’t think you should be dragging yourself through the days with the thought that it’s suddenly gonna get better later. I think that actually makes things feel worse when you get there and realize that it’s just another day like usual. I think it’s better to do everything you can to build a process for dealing with stress and anxiety until the day comes that your first response no longer being overwhelmed. This is how I feel anyway. I’m still working on it.
So.. yeah. I’d recommend talking to a counselor. Don’t be embarrassed about it, if you’ve never spoken one before. They and we students all know that school can be really stressful and a strain on our mental health. Several people I know in the program go see counselors. They say it’s really helpful!
I hope I’ve been a little helpful and didn’t make anything worse. Ack. Feel free to come off anon and chat with me (I can be reached at onethirdbird on tumblr) about art, school, feelings, food, anime, or anything you want! It’s a judgment free zone!
Drop us a line later to let us know how you’re doing. Hope things get better for you soon!
mod 2 (ikkoros): And seriously, don’t be afraid to talk with any friends you have either; it helps if they’re an artist too (like your classmates!) or just an old friend from highschool and whatnot. It helps you realize that everyone, no matter how successful they look on the outside, really don’t have that much confidence in their own skills.
I think a lot of the art community, or at least what it seems like on the outside, perpetuates art as only being worth the final product. That’s not true! Art is made only by artists, and all artists are humans who put a lot of stock and emotion into their own work. It’s definitely a lot of pain and tears, but if more than half of your days are pain and tears (or anything, really; don’t ever think you’re overreacting!) then it would be good to go to a counsellor too, on top of talking with friends you trust. Heck, you can even make new friends by bonding over your insecurities! (seriously. I think that is how I make my closest friendships, haha)
I hope what I said helps too. And as the mod above said, please drop us a line to let us know how you’re doing after. We really do care about the wellbeing of you kids!!! And every kid above us, too.
P.S. If you want to go see a counselor, I would make an appointment ASAP because they book up super fast and it takes at least two weeks to get to be able to see one.